2014년 1월 29일 수요일

This

This country really driving me crazy
Hate this country hate myself
Everything is so slow
even Bank. worst Bank in the world I sure it.
Stollen my mobile oneday
So lonely  to live
Racism


But somehow there are good things
someone return to wallet to me
and good quality of food in the supermarket.
and I luv bubble tea


wallet

I lost wallet and some British old men returned to me 4 days later.
I gave him chocolate and now I really hate myself
I am super silly in the world
so I am superman


Rei Harakami & Great 3 - Oh Baby Plus

2014년 1월 14일 화요일

to my body

please allow me to fell a sleep as soon as possible.
I need to sleep before go to workshop. I promised to meet some class mate to get some coins!
Thanks people. I can't miss this chance.
so plz. my body~
let me sleep. I am full. and feel good because I listen to Indian music.
everything is perfect. don't u think? but I know it the life is very weird. It I wnt something. It run away and after I forget it comes to me. that't why I'm worrying. what if I fell a sleep at the workshop? even I talking to people and walk around? horrible

what's wrong with u ?

I had exercise in this morning. After that I started starving when I arrive at home.
so I  cooked rice , dinsume and took out seaweed from my treasure drawer. I took one spoon rice and then I feel my stomach is full already!
I do not want to have them anymore.
Well This time is more suitable to having a coco pop I knew it. but
I promised myself that do not take junk food and unhealthy food anymore.
I will get illness. my weak body. so hate it.
I want cocopop ! but I can't!
because I know myself. I will eat them up in 3 hours.

negative depression person

1_
My counceller in my country. She is moving to other hospital because her resident is over.
I didn't say anything and ask about her information to contact in the future. even she said that  want u to see me in the future.
I don't know why but She gave me the wing and I thought it's time to fly myself.
I met her 2011 October. That time was full of sadness. My crying seems never stop. I prefered to fell a sleep to forget my sadness. and so I slept more than 20 hours a day.
Thank u very much professional. u r so beautiful and kind in this world.

2_
I took one lexapro, and half insomnia phills. but my body doesnt seems like feel anything to go to sleep.
What should I do?
just wait and think about my project or resaerch.
I have headache after hearing about something from sharehouse mate. she saud u looks so peaceful even u r in yr.3
Thank u so much u gave me serious headache and insomnia gift tonight~

3_
I want friend
I do not want friend

I want to talk
I do not want to talk

I want to die

4_
What am I doing for the future?
stay at London such a hell?
go back to my country and stay at luxury mantion with wearing high price one-piece?

Who going to stay at the hell?
But I want to stay at the Hell like London.
The reason?
Just one thing.

I can do alone whatever I want.
I can have dinner alone and go shopping alone and study alone
and walk alone








concept

1_
Nowdays, I more thinking of hope.
Because that is my main theme this yr.
At first time, I felt bad. all I need was death.
I want to die one hundred of times a day.
But nowdays, I want to die only 5 times a week.

2_
Many people think I am lazy.
But I know I don't have any talent for design. I do my best for research and anlayse and then design.

3_
I ordered more than 11 books related to jewellery design.
contemporary design, metal design, art design, model drawing,,, etc.

4_
I got much clear idea for my concept. I finally got my admire for design something. It is my first time during 3 yrs.


나는

너는 나의 좋은 친구였다.



왜일까 지금은 너를 만나는게 괴롭다.


그런생각하는 내가 괴롭다.

우리 거리를 두자. 10년친구. 나의 소중한 10년친구.

ㄴㅁ

바보같다.
그사람도 나도 바보같다.
그사람도 나도 포기하고 대충넘기고 바보같다.
바라는건 그렇게 대단한게 아니다.
단지 매일 건강하게 살고 때로는 내일이 오는거에 두근두근하고
때론 누구를 생각하며 설레이고
단지 그것뿐인데
나는 바보같다.